I’ve been wanting to share what’s been on my heart lately. In April of 2017, I suffered a bilateral pulmonary embolism. It was “severe and sudden” according to my doctor. Also, a bit of a mystery on why I suffered these blood clots. It is thought that it was the perfect storm of stress on my body with recent travel in a car to Florida, birth control pills, obesity and the recent passing of my mom. The doctors were able to dissolve the clots with no permanent damage. I am one lucky gal to be alive! I am on the blood thinner Eliquis 5mg x2 a day for the rest of my life.
Besides the occasional nose bleeds and bleeding gums, I do pretty well with the side effects, but there is one area I have been suffering with.......fertility.
My blood doctor assumed that I already had children and had no plans to become pregnant. Well, as a 32 year old single woman with no kids, I became panicked at this statement. Are you telling me that I can never have children?? My worst case scenario brain in full effect! That wasn’t exactly the case but pregnancy would have to be a very thought out plan for several reasons. 1. Having a child is a big deal! 2. Estrogen is boosted during pregnancy and puts me at risk of developing another blood clot. 3. I would not be able to take Eliquis and would have to take two shots everyday. 4. I am getting older.
I left the doctor after my first post-ICU follow-up in tears. I could feel my biological clock ticking. A few months passed of being on the blood thinner medication regularly and I developed menorrhagia. That is heavy bleeding during periods. I won’t go into details but I was suffering and a year and a half later, I am still suffering. I’ve been to my doctors and on/off medications. I am unable to take any type of hormonal therapy because of risk of clots.
My doctor offered a solution.......endometrial ablation. This is the burning of the lining of the uterus. This would stop the bleeding but not recommended if I ever want to have a child.
I have to make a decision.....
As a VERY single, 34 year old woman with a history of blood clots, do I have this procedure to improve my quality of life but permanently end my chances of getting pregnant?
Do I come off of blood thinners and put myself at risk for developing another pulmonary embolism?
I know that there are other ways of having a child and adoption has always been on my list, but I am dealing with the emotion of motherhood.
A week after losing my mother and best friend, my own possibility of motherhood is questioned. Do I make this very permanent decision and face regret later?
Has anyone faced a decision like this before? I’d love to talk. Thanks for listening to what has been on my heart lately. ❤️