Letters to My Loves

❤️ To my first love.  I admittedly know that I was young, immature and struggling with my mental illness.

I stressed myself out for years trying to make it “work” and prove I was in “love”.

You pushing me away did not push me into the arms of someone else. It pushed me to shut myself down. I took it as everything wrong with me and I was the problem.

But ya know what...THANK YOU. Thank you for setting the perfect example of a relationship I DO NOT WANT. 

While I wish you the best in your life, it’s been absolutely freeing to not have to filter through your, “I’ll always be there for you” texts. While it’s a nice thought, I don’t need anything from you. I got this babe. 

💔 To the one that broke me: I was trying to protect my heart from you and you kept assuring me that I’d be the last person you would want to hurt. I had never felt this way about anyone before. After our first date over coffee, I went home and told my mom that I think I just met the man I was going to marry. I felt so attracted and drawn to you. I couldn’t wait to hear your voice on the other line. My heart missed you so much when we were apart. I trusted you and believed in the happy ever after. 

But instead you broke my heart into pieces and left no explanation but years later I can look back on it and see all the red flags. 

So I want to thank you. You taught me to always go with my gut instinct, stand up for myself and demand respect. I hope and prayer you teach your daughters to do the same. 

💞 To the Future Mr. Mighty Werthy: Wow babe it’s been a JOURNEY to get to you! The wait was worth it. I honestly almost gave up on you. I thought I was never going to be enough for you. Whether it be skinny,  beautiful or successful, I never thought you’d choose me. But you did choose me. You chose my contagious laugh that you’d want to hear when you were having a bad day. You chose me for my heart that gives and gives. You chose me for my height to help you reach the top shelf. You chose me for my smile, my love and the way I light up when someone mentions tacos. You chose me because you knew I could take care of myself and didn’t feel insecure about it or take advantage. You let me be me. I love you for that. But in all reality, I never would have found you had I not decided to CHOOSE myself. I’m glad I made that decision so our paths could cross in the most exciting way! I love you boo boo. 😘

💓 To My Self Love: Choose yourself day after day. Even when you feel like giving up. Stand up for yourself! Be sure to hold that head up and smile that beautiful smile because you never know who you are going to run into. 💞