Signing my fertility away.

As I stared at the form, I kept looking at the word Sterilization. I ask myself, “Why is this not triggering any emotions for me?” Is there something wrong with me that I don’t feel sad emotions about my hysterectomy?

I will never birth a baby.

My heart is content.

I know that I was put on this Earth to heal others. I know my purpose and I feel so empowered.

I know that this is all a part of the grief process. Just because I am content and not feeling sad emotions, doesn’t mean I am still not grieving. Some may say, “I thought you were over it?”

Let me share some advice…

Grief is a lifelong process. It’s not something you “get over” and just move on with life. There will be triggers. Scrolling through Social media and seeing belly photos showing weekly progress, baby shower invites and walking past the baby section in Target. All will be felt with emotion in the pit of my stomach. The way I handle is under my control.

Acknowledge my feelings because THEY ARE VALID.

Write down 5 things I am grateful for in my life.

Celebrate my purpose and smile for that life I have . ❤️

Dear infertility warrior,

It’s okay to be angry.

It’s okay to be sad.

It’s okay to be frustrated

It’s okay to be jealous.

It’s okay to feel. ❤️